Tuesday, 30 July 2013

Forget Me Not

Forget me not while I am gone
I cannot stand to know that absence
Failed to make your heart fond of me
I, the one you loved not so long ago
On that tender summer night

That tender summer night
When the sky was filled with stars
You promised love forever more
With an open heart and lovely lips
You spoke of life and love eternal

Eternal love, that sacred quest
Hath since the world began
Driven men to heights untold
For a woman's love I've been told
Is worth it all and more

Forget me not while I am gone
O! You gentle courtesan
I will return to you at the end
Of this wretched war, regardless the
Price they choose to make me pay


Peace at Last

I came across her pristine pool
The only water for miles around
Long before this happenstance
Nature's ire had fouled her quiet depths
The signs nearby told me thus
I drank from her till my belly ached
To find my peace by her silent banks


Lost Time

Its morning still on the British isle
Out in the farthest east,
In Hong Kong and Shanghai
The clock's gone much farther ahead
I set my watch to Hong Kong time
Pour a snifter of Scotland's best
To celebrate the day that's just now begun

Its morning now in the farthest east
Bankers and traders and thieves
Are up and about in force
It’s a boisterous midnight in London yet
The revellers now own the streets
So I turn the clock to British time
Before I join in the raging bacchanal

Again and again it goes
Till I know not where I am
The day of the week or the time of the day
The price I chose to pay for the
Ravaging pleasure of this, my one escape


Saturday, 27 July 2013

Letters to Uncle Joe (no.1)

It’s been a while Uncle Joe
Eight years and six months since
I got the news that I'd never hear you
Speak in that broken tongue of yours
That had come to mean as much to me
As all the best memories of my far away youth
I've missed you Uncle Joe. Mostly on those nights
When I've been with the bottle too long
Longer than is apt for one as young as me
I miss you too in the daylight, on those awful days
When my errant mind drifts along to the past
To memories of happier times
Teacher misses you too, more than she knows
She's a woman now and a fine one to boot
Her mind has moved to other things. Like it ought to do.
It’s the life we lead, the world we have to live in
The ones we love leave us, and in time we start to forget
Why we loved them to begin with
But you know that already. You knew a lot of things
It’s why I wish you were here, with all my heart and soul

It'll be nice to sit with you again
To talk for hours on end
About the wars you fought and survived
And the battles I'm fighting and losing
I have to tell you the truth Uncle Joe
That I'm getting my ass kicked here
That I lost my way a while ago, and
It's not easy finding the way back
To the dreams I had and shared with you
Out on the marbled porch of the big house
In the east. Same place we met so many years ago
Where through many balmy evenings
We talked and laughed and cried
I was just a boy with a pocketful of dreams
You were one of a kind, the kind that made
Me believe that those dreams were good enough
To get me a place in the world
I'm a man now, but not the man I planned to be

I'm sorry Uncle Joe, for all those promises I made
And have failed to keep so far
Life hasn't happened like I hoped to God it would.
I'm not making excuses. Not to you I won't.
If you'll take the time to write me a note
That helps me remember the boy I was before
And the man I ought to become
I promise you I will try for all my living days
To make it up to you, and to the ones you left behind
If on your evening walks, you chance upon Grandma
Please give her a message from me. Tell her I miss her too
But I miss you more Uncle Joe
I really wish you were here, with all my heart and soul


Unreliable Witness

When you've been offended
It’s good to forgive the offence
And forget it happened
Or so I've been told
So I've tried to forgive the stove
That burned my hand at Christmas
But I'm afraid to forget
I'm worried it'll get me again if I did

Today, I rode a bike again
The moment I climbed the seats
I knew what I was supposed to do
Though it's been ten years since
I took off like Lance on drugs
How did I manage to forget
My girlfriend's birthday today?

I remember my first sexual encounter
But the memory of my first climax
Doesn't exist anymore
I've spent the years since,
Trying to recreate the memory
So far without success
But I'm happy to keep at it

When I read a biography
And see a lot of direct quotes
I wonder if all the people I meet,
Carry recorders in their pockets
To keep proper account of events
In case they choose in twenty years
To recreate our encounters in print

I had scrambled eggs and porridge
For breakfast this morning
The eggs were a little salty
And the porridge a bit cold
I won't remember that tomorrow
Yet I remember my first kiss
From when I was twelve years old

The pubs and bars of London
Are great for picking up women
Mostly because I only remember
The ones that came home with me
I've banished from memory the ones
Who threw their wine in my face,
Before they walked, swinging
Their hips in my face

It's a good thing nobody remembers
The day they were born
We're all screwed up enough already
Without the memory of that day
When we first made our mothers cry
In the presence of total strangers


The Judgement of Strangers

I have a doctor friend
Who works with ailing kids
Plays football at the weekends
And chain smokes cigarettes at night
That's how he manages the stress
Of dealing with suffering kids

Stella's got a boss
Who likes his hand up her skirt
She's got rent and loans to pay
So she keeps a job she hates
But picks up men at the bar
She's reclaiming her sexuality

My friend, the wealthy banker
Carries a vial of cocaine
For those scary moments
When the numbers refuse to add up
These days, I see he's formed a habit
Of mixing his coke with X

Harry's the defendant’s lawyer
With a taste for all things grey
Five years with dangerous criminals
Has turned him from a jolly fellow
To the guy who prowls at night
For hookers, poppers and weed

Betty's been married for ten years
To a man her Daddy picked
She's got two kids and a dog
And drinks vodka from a tea cup
That's how she keeps from becoming
Her generation's Susan Smith

Peter's wife is pregnant
The doctor says its twins
The same doctor treats his mistress
She's expecting too
So when he's crying in church
Its not the spirit that drives him to

Ricky my friend the barman
Likes to laugh at others' misery
That’s to keep from thinking
About the two ex-wives
And his teenage lover boy
Who all wished him dead

My friend the school teacher
Has her shrink on speed dial
Still spends half her earnings
On psychics and fortune tellers
All of whom failed to predict
Her recent bankruptcy filing

Sitting at home, alone at night
With a bottle of single malt
I wonder and ask myself
Who has the right to judge  
The things we choose to do
To keep from going insane


Damn Lies

Yesterday, mama said tomorrow
Will be a brighter day
Today I dressed in shorts and sandals
And made my way to the local park
With my picnic of sandwiches and wine
I came home soon after
Soaked to the skin by the rain

They said we got a democracy
And I the voter, I'm boss
So I sent my pair of wing tips
To the palace on the rock
I hoped to get a spit and shine
Not a visit from the cops
And a week in the brig to boot

Papa said dreams come through
That's why I spread this silk sheets
Before I rocked myself to sleep
Thinking of Penelope Cruz
I woke up this morning alone
Holding my stiffened sword
Like a knight at war with the world

They doctor said to use a condom
It'll make the sex safe
So I got the little blue pills, and
The box of strawberry magnums
For every time I laid the maid
Now my wife's got my house
My kids and my money too

The preacher said Jesus died
And rose again in three days
I needed three days to rest
So I clicked the safety off
And put the glock to my head
For that I got a month
In bed, at the crazy house

Somebody's been telling me lies
Damn them all to pieces
Me too for believing them all


Gloria in Excelsis Deo

Glory be to God most high
Whose righteous breath
Hath given me life
By whose grace I live
In his love, I find my peace

Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
A thousand voices ring out
Angels in worship, sing
Then bow, and dance and cry
In praise and adoration of the most high

Glory! Glory! Praise the Lord!
Who caused the seasons to change
The snowdrops to bloom in spring
The yellow moonbeam to thrive in summer
And sweet jasmine in bitter winter

Glory be to God most high!
For he hath turned night to day
Mourning to dancing, sadness to joy
Praise be Jehovah most high
God of all the heaven and earth

Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
 I will sing his praise each day
Through this earth and beyond
For he alone is God
And His mercy endures forever

Glory! Glory! Praise the Lord!
Worship him all the earth
Let the people sing
Let the earth rejoice
He is risen, he will return

Glory be to God in the highest!
Gloria in excelsis Deo!
My Lord, my King, my God
In whose promise I place my faith
By whose hand I live and breathe

Glory! Glory! Praise the Lord!
Whose blood hath washed the filth away
And made whole the broken bits
Hallelujah in the highest!
Glory! Glory! Praise the Lord!


Happy Endings

I held out for perfection
An utopia that didn’t exist
For that I nearly lost my love
To a dream that couldn’t be
And a vision  that wasn’t real

In a perfect world
I’ll wake up to you in the morning
Every day, till the end
I’ll come home to you tonight
And every night hence

In a perfect world
We’ll build a picket fence
Raise two chocolate miniatures
A couple golden retrievers
And grow old together, hand in hand

I’ll die in your arms
And you in mine
Then we can carry on as always
In a next life, in another universe
Only in a perfect world

But nobody’s promised a happy life
Or a happy ending
So I’ll take tonight
And tomorrow too
The rest I’d leave to providence
And God, wherever he may be


Tuesday, 23 July 2013

Waiting for Heaven

Last night I made a call to heaven
And asked to speak to God
Some angel put me on hold
And I've been waiting ever since
For a chance to speak to Jehovah
To spend some time with the Saviour
And complain, cry and whine
About all that ails me still 

I feel a pain in my head
That won't go away
There's a hole in my wallet
All my money's fallen away
I'm in love with a woman
But I can't get her to stay
I've got a job to go to
I don't much like the pay

I've got a line to heaven
Some angel's got me on hold
He says they've got a crisis
A plane crash in the Atlantic
Two hundred and fifty on board
Civil war in Syria, fracas in Iraq
Three thousand dead and gone
Maybe more by the morrow

Here I've got a mortgage due
And a boss who hates my guts
My daughter's got a tattoo
I worry it'll be a baby next
My son's found the booze
And he's got a girlfriend too
So I'd like to speak to God
But an angel's got me on hold

I'd like some time with God
I hear he's got all the answers
It’s the reason I’ve held on since
Though I'm a little angry now
I'll hold my peace a while
Till I get can get some time with God
To whine, and cry and complain
About all that ails me still. 


Hero and Leander

Darling, stay with me tonight
We'll dance long into the night
Till long after the music stops
Then consumed by lust and longing,
Driven by rapturous desire
We'll lay by the shores of the Eden
And make love to the sound of the water
Watched by a million little stars

Stay with me tonight
Tomorrow, we'll smile a lot
Aware of the things we've done
Pleasured by the memories we made

Stay with me tonight
We'll walk through St James Park
Laughing, kissing, touching
Waiting for the guards to change
So we can sneak past Her Majesty's violet tulips
Onto ancient, royal ground
And explore our amorous passions
In the shadow of grand Buckingham.

Stay with me tonight
Might be the only one we'll get
So let's lock the world away
And live tonight like we owned it all.


Friday, 19 July 2013

Maiden Cantata

Reclining on a lounge chair
Staring at the mountain side
Over the bamboo fence I catch faint sights
And distant glimpses
Of the full moon in motion
Wallowing in unequalled beauty

With frequent bouts of ignorant joy
Young children dance and play
Rolling themselves in the sand

Ugly mouths of inspired owls howl endlessly
At sunset
Sounding death knells for crest fallen maidens
Bound hands and feet and mouth
With tattered strips of cloth
Torn away from aging garments of pure cotton
And generous silk
On a final journey towards Hades

The joyous shouts of ecstatic kids
The deafening silence of the night
The beckoning sound of hollowed gongs
And native priests
The fiery howl of the messenger owl
And painful cries of lost maidens
Laid before unknown gods as sacrifice
To do as please
Mix into an unruly concoction
A ghoulish attempt at music making